Go back to the church you left. I’m sure it’s bloody awful as an ecclesiatical body. They all are, even the pre conciliar Roman church, and most certainly LCMS.
For the record, I want to say that Lutheran Church of Australia is a very fine ecclesiastical body. I didn’t leave it because it was “bloody awful”. It was the best humanly possible in many ways, and in human terms much finer in many ways than the one I belong to now. (I am thinking of the title of the book by Catholic convert Joana Bogle called “Come on in, it’s awful!”). I left the Lutheran Church of Australia for one reason only: it was not the Catholic Church established by Jesus Christ, and nothing could have been done to make it the Catholic Church. And as they say in the movies, it was “no-one’s fault, not even the Romans.” It was just the way it was.